Firefly

I'm writing this really quickly before I go back to school, two more weeks of classes, not looking forward to cramming out a lot of work that I know needs to be done, but I guess that's life ain't it. I want to go on a roadtrip during winter break. maybe for a week. that sounds like something really exciting. thanksgiving was boring and mute. I really didnt do anything too impressive, except get drunk and play dreamcast.

It appears that I may have the christopherwalken tour tape by the end of this week. hopefully. I know all zero people that read this are excited for it. still zero word on the shirts. oh-well.

My girlfriend has strep throat, she didn't get it from me. HMMMMMMMMM. hahahah.

Why is old Saves The Day so good, but new Saves the day is so bad? I mean comparing lyrics

"To me you are the light from a light bulb that breaks sometimes
and the tender warmth inside is released into my life
and it smothers me in flames that lick and scorch my face.
As the smoke reaches the sky know I'm burning tonight."

To something really bad like

"Once in awhile, making you smile
by singing with the radio
You're singing with the radio
We heard it on the radio"

TANKSGIVIN'

I got back from the weekend tour alive.

& my car is fixed.

the volvo rides again!

Starcraft or something

I'm sitting in my dorm room right now, hoping Scott calls someone he needs to about these tapes. seriously on my last strand of patience about them. the dude that recorded us is a nice guy and they sound great, but I'm never gonna record with him again. Such a hassle. Also still haven't figured out how we're getting from philly to easton and back, but I'm sure I'll think of something.

I can't wait for break so I can hang out with all the kids I've been missing.

I've been fucking obsessing over Starcraft lately. Lovely showed me it. stuff is insanely fun. I spent all last night watching videos of like world champions play each other. the game is like a million years old but people still love it.

Also, this finally got posted. Tyler's rad video from years ago. watch and enjoy

Hey Malcolm! from Tyler Z. on Vimeo.

true

try this next time you log into facebook. "up up down down left right left right b a enter."

kinda funny.

Dinosaurs died quite a while ago

I went to an Algernon Show tuesday. had the weirdest conversations with people, think I made friends. I guess its easier when one of us is drunk. I think thats good, I'm really confused about that night, but there was a lot of hugs and high fives. It was a release show for this new tape featuring like 26 "exstended family and friends" in the local scene, its really neat. I'm listening to it now and its a lot of fun. Pick it up if you get the chance. makes me really stoked that christopherwalken's tape is coming out. The deadline is killing me. but I'll get this done. I'm trying to do everything i did wrong in my other bands right. starting with merch and recording.

Lie #1. its really not always sunny in Philadelphia, its absolutely terrible outside, I hate it. makes me sleep all day, want to die at night. oh well, november is never fun.

I dunno how but I got some girl to agree to drive my band down to delaware for a show so we officially have transportation to all the dates.

Recently my friends boyfriend dumped her. I can only assume for someone else he's been spending an outrageous amount of time with. Weed fucks up life sometimes. Such a bummer.

I wish I was dead sometimes

I've become so completely disillusioned with everything over the past weekend. every thing has become so clear to me. I've been asking myself for a while what happened to the huge group of people, of friends, I fell into over the summer of 2008. that I had great experiences with through the winter. It seemed when spring rolled around no one wanted to do anything. everyone disbanded. They had their weed, or their cigarettes or their sports and didn't want to contend themselves with a hanger-on that would be gone in august anyway. Better to cut the ties before a real emotion attachment is made I assume.

The people who used to call me their "best friend" don't want to hang out unless I can get them a drink or do them some other favor. No one is interested, unless superficially, in how I'm doing. but, thankfully, one bothers with that facade much. Its either I'm constantly disappointed, or I'm a constant disappointment. I don't understand which one.

Mostly, no one seems to care about music anymore. I guess people only went to shows because they were fucking someone playing. or wanted to fuck someone playing. absolutely no one shows interest, its like pulling teeth to even ask these kids to come out. maybe I was wrong and this group wasn't built around liking music. maybe it was built around Wing Night, and I'm just fucking stupid. Maybe I'm just expecting too much.

"I'm not around, I just don't see everything's the same." or so I've heard. but if anyone believes that their lying to themselves. I can't possibly believe that It just happens that no one gives a shit only on the days I'm around to see it. especially when those days are the weekends.

This isn't the first time I've felt like this. I felt like this since school ended in the summer. I've been trying to push these feelings to the very back of my mind. hoping that they'll go away and everything will come around again. but It just ain't happening. I'm alone. completely.

yeah?

It hasn't gotten any easier since you've gone
but I can't chase that away with 5 dollar wine
pictures in my pocket, nothing else in my wallet
I still can't believe I ever thought that i'd be fine

and you know, I just wanna say. I miss my dog.
it's been too long. and i'm choking on the loss.
All I wanna say is that I miss my miss my dog.

nisky hill doesn't cry out like it used to
I can almost drive by without thinking of you
sometimes i'll huge the kitchens linoleum tiles
telling no one in particular that i wont forget your smiles

and you know, I just wanna say. I miss my dog.
it's been too long. and i'm choking on the loss.
All I wanna say is that I miss my miss my dog.

i know nothing is resting at this place
but i'll touch the ground above your face
the earth has made you a cold dark bed
but i feel its the worms have made their home my head

Halloween was fucking nuts! the weekend ruled hard. Friday night I was gonna go out and party but Eric called me up and said he was coming down to Philly for a Halloween show in the west end. So I went to that and it was just crazy. so many good bands were covered but the highlight of the night was Jordan Hollander's band doing a cover of operation ivy. they were so authentic, he played the part so well. I was ecstatic. So many shout a longs.

We picked up JCOMark drove home really late in eric's pickup. On the way home we just talked about Green Day and related things. mad bonding i'd say.

Saturday was spent with cara and driving around. We played a pretty cool set. people seemed to dig us, which was neat. Can't wait till next week when we start playing originals at our show next weekend. There's a party after, that should be rediculous.

I'm dead, i'll write more stuff about stuff later.